i think i killed real live preacher

My final entry i think i killed real live preacher i didnt mean to i thought resigning as the pastor of covenant baptist church would be its own thing i thought it would remove something from...

A thing that happened

What I feel like is a man slowly drifting away from his faith. It's not an intellectual process. My commitment to Christianity is far deeper than mind games now. My faith is of the...

Words like rain

If I could hear just one word from you. Just one clear word and everything would change. To hear the church people talk, your words are a dime a dozen and fall like rain...

I’m all In

I was in a religious service recently where some people raised their hands, closed their eyes, and swayed back and forth as they sang. This kind of thing is generally a sign that the...

After 56 times around Sol

I have completed 56 trips around the Sun. I am a middle-aged man. There is no hiding that now. In my 40s I could pretend. But the number 56 and my hairline shout the...

Dream Journal: “My Sins and Jesus”

While my father was in seminary he was the pastor of New York Baptist Church, which is a country church near New York, Texas. Recently I dreamed that I was going back to New...

Cast Out

Sunday, February 26th. The first Sunday of lent. A very literal translation of Mark 1:12-13, part of today's gospel text: "And immediately the Spirit cast him out into the wilderness. And he was in the wilderness...

The messiest prayer ever

Hi God, It’s Gordon. Again. Um, you know my deal. Of course you do; I’m just saying. Hmm. Okay. I’m the worst. I mean, I know I’m not the worst; I’m exaggerating. But seriously, I am...

Graphene boundary

The prayers of the people Form II in the Book of Common Prayer are beautiful if prayed with the intent to receive from God the energy and desire to make these petitions a reality in the...

Reunion

Hello dear one. Yes it's me. It HAS been a long time. Yes. I haven't been anywhere, really. Just away. I DO love you. I do. No. No. Maybe. I don't know. Well, that's the $100,000 question, isn't it? Trust me. You'll be the first...